Open Letter to Denise Juneau, Superintendent of Seattle Public Schools

Wouldn’t it be nice if my blog could be focused more on the good work of the educators of Color dedicated to Ethnic Studies in Seattle Public Schools? I intended for this blog to be a tool for activism and information, but with as much gatekeeping and interference our program is up against, it seems this blog is more the former than the latter. I hope that one day, soon, we won’t have to fight so hard for the Ethnic Studies program and this blog can be more for information and sharing joy. In the meantime…

Superintendent Denise Juneau,

At a school board meeting on January 8th, 2020, there was a conversation about creating ethnic studies courses students could enroll in to earn graduation credits. At approximately 2:01:30 in this video of the board meeting you make a statement that includes the words, “I hope teachers on there [Ethnic Studies Advisory Group] will really take this seriously because the only people that will lose out if this does not happen are students. And so that’s my message to the ethnic studies advisory council: Please come together, look at these courses, decide whether they can be approved for ethnic studies for cross-credit because we really want our students to be able to have access next year.”

Superintendent Juneau, there are a few things the Ethnic Studies Advisory Group (please learn our name) would like you to know. We are in our third year of “coming together” as a group of dedicated educators of Color. We have “come together” despite threats from our principals, mistreatment, gatekeeping, and exploitation by administrators in Seattle Public Schools, and threats of physical violence from the community. We have “come together” to create the very foundation upon which today’s Ethnic Studies Program currently sits. We “come together” despite the fact you have refused to staff the program to make it sustainable. We “come together” despite the fact we frequently do not get paid for the volumes of work we have created. We “come together” because we are the adult versions of our current students; radicalized by our own experiences with institutional racism in education – both our personal education and as educators in Seattle Public Schools. We are so committed to this work, despite severe lack of support, that four educators from our group are on medical leave for stress induced by racism perpetuated by our employer.

We came together in November to begin the work of writing course descriptions you mentioned in your statement, only to have that work appropriated when the Ethnic Studies Program Manager, Tracy Castro-Gill, went on medical leave for stress induced by racism perpetuated by her employer. In December, we came together and met with Dr. DeBacker and Dr. Perkins, who informed us they had tasked a separate group of educators to complete the work we had begun; educators who have not been vetted to do such sensitive and important work. However, you chose to lay blame for incomplete work at the feet of the group of educators who have built the Ethnic Studies Program. Not only did you choose to make such an ignorant and offensive statement, you also implied that the Advisory Group is purposefully working against the effort to create course descriptions for cross-crediting.

We “come together” now to demand a public apology for the disrespectful statements made by you from the dais on January 8th, 2020. Educators of Color are watching and hoping that you will deliver on all the promises you are making.


The 21 members of the Ethnic Studies Advisory Group:

Alma Ramiro Alonzo, Montlake Elementary School

Akin Alston, Mathematician, Educator, and Entrepreneur

Kaitlin Kamalei Brandon, Leschi Elementary School

Tracy Castro-Gill, John Stanford Center for Educational Excellence

Andrea Chorney, Denny International Middle School

Flordelrio Correa, Interagency High School

Jennifer Dunn, Southlake High School

Donte Felder, Orca K8

Jon Greenberg, The Center School

Heather Griffin, Chief Sealth International High School

Tara Hofmann, John Stanford Center for Educational Excellence

Amanda Hubbard, Kimball Elementary School

Bruce Jackson, Aki Kurose Middle School

Savanna Jamerson, Interagency High School

Lisa Rice, Franklin High School

Rogelio Rigor, Interagency High School (retired)

Deven Shah, Broadview Thomson K8

Shraddha Shirude, Garfield High School

Justin Vinson, Franklin High School

Tess Williams, Cleveland High School

Elisa Yzaguirre, Denny International Middle School

Seattle Public Schools Does Not Like Educators of Color

EoC, We Have a Problem

Teaching is white. As a profession, the demographics for educators is 80% white. For Washington State, it’s 90%. Seattle Public Schools, however, has the most diverse teaching force at 75% white. Seattle Public Schools has also taken a very strict anti-racist stance since the new superintendent has taken over – at least in words.

One would believe that given these circumstances, educators of color would be at the forefront of this anti-racist movement in the district. We have the most concentrated numbers of educators of color. We are the only district in the state whose educator union has a program called The Center for Racial Equity, created and led by a Black womxn. We are one of the few districts in the state that has an official Ethnic Studies program. It looks like a great place to be for educators of color, right?


What we have in SPS are “leaders”, the vast majority of whom are white, talking about racial equity without having any idea what that actually means. They are claiming to work on goals like increasing the literacy rates of 3rd grade African American males, diversifying the workforce, and creating a culturally responsive workforce. In the most diverse district in the state one would assume those people leading these goals are people of color who have a great deal of understanding about what racial justice looks like. You’d be wrong. They are all white and they are leading these goals the white way.

What does the white way look like, you ask? You always ask such thoughtful questions. I appreciate that. Well, if you’re a person of color, I’m sure you know where I’m going. First, and always foremost, there’s tokenization. They put “taskforces” and “workgroups” together with a generous sprinkle of POC that perform various roles in the district. They may even bring in POC outside of the organization – you know… the token Black parent. Second, they elevate some POC to very visible roles that have little to nothing to do with the actual stated goals, which gives the illusion that a person of color is leading the work. That way, when someone calls them out on the lack of leadership of color, they can point to the one or two people that may have some vaguely related responsibility but no real positional power.

Last, and the most insidious and destructive, is the #BrownTax. The #BrownTax shows up in many ways. The most common I’ve seen is at the school building level where a Black or Brown educator becomes the disciplinarian who deals with “those kids” the (white) teachers can’t seem to “control”. Often times, principals will purposefully hire Black men for the role of instructional assistant for kids who are in special education programs for behavioral support: white teacher with the pay that comes with that title/Black disciplinarian in the form of an IA with the pay that (does not) come with that title.

Institutional #BrownTax

Right now I’m on a medical leave for stress along with at least three of my colleagues, all of whom are womxn of color who have been leading racial justice work for the past several years in the district. The #BrownTax taxes more than our pocketbooks. It taxes our physical, psychological, and emotional well-being. SPS leadership has created a perfect storm for the most severe #BrownTax that can exist on an institutional level. Here’s how it works.

  1. We say we are anti-racist.
  2. We don’t change any of the infrastructure or procedures that are racist.
  3. We put white people in charge of the goals ignoring the fact that educators of color have already been doing this work for years.
  4. The white people realize (if we’re lucky) they don’t know what they’re doing.
  5. They push the work, but not the title or the money, off on people of color, sometimes the same EoC that have already been doing the work.
  6. They don’t provide time, money, human power, or other resources needed to complete the work.
  7. They disregard the work and recommendations of the people of color they pushed the work off on and do the white thing anyway.

Let’s Look At a Case Study

I can speak most authoritatively on my own examples, which include the Ethnic Studies program. This program began in 2017 before our current superintendent was hired. I put together a group of educators, now called the Ethnic Studies Advisory Group, to assist in creating the program. Today, that group consists of 23 K-12 educators: 4 white educators, 4 Latinx educators, 5 Black educators, 4 Asian educators, 3 Filipinx educators, and 1 Asian Pacific Islander educator. As you can see, we are mostly educators of color, about 20% of us identify as queer, and 70% of us are womxn. This group has been leading in the creation of curriculum, professional development, and general decision making about the Ethnic Studies program since 2017. We meet once a month for an entire day, 7 months per year. That may seem like a lot, but when you consider we’re building a K-12 interdisciplinary program for the largest district in the state from scratch, that is nothing. Oh, and did I mention the Advisory Group doesn’t get paid? That’s important to know, too.

Despite the fact that students and community members show up to virtually every school board meeting demanding ethnic studies, and despite the fact that we claim we are anti-racist, and despite the fact that our work is helping to inform state-wide creation of ethnic studies curriculum, we are currently in a situation where I am the only person on the institutional level who works on this program full time. Again, it’s a K-12 interdisciplinary program, which means I am responsible for creating curricula for each content area at each grade level and training the 4000+ educators in the 100+ schools across the district on how to use those curricula.

Like I said, I’m on leave in large part because of this #BrownTax, but also because of #7 on the list above. I have been excluded from discussions and conversations by “leadership” about ethnic studies more times than I can remember. I have been micro – and macro – aggressed by the white people who are “leading” the district goals for racial equity. So, I’m on leave. When I left for leave I was in the middle of writing course descriptions for ethnic studies courses that could be cross-credited by high schoolers for graduation requirements. I first consulted the Advisory Group who gave me instructions on how to write the descriptions, but since we meet so infrequently and for such short amounts of time, it was on me to finish the descriptions. Unfortunately, I couldn’t hang that long, and when I left my supervisor asked me what should be done. I told her the Advisory Group would need to finish the course descriptions.

Guess what? Instead of going to the Advisory Group as a whole, they reached out to one of the 2 white men in the group for advice who promptly pointed out the racism and misogyny of that move and provided the names and contact info for the advisory group members. Were they contacted? Nope. Instead, the white man who is now “leading” this work went to the high school department heads, almost entirely white, and asked them to recruit teachers from their schools to write the course descriptions. We have no way of knowing if these people even know what ethnic studies is or if they have any understanding of racism. None of the department heads except for two have even had any ethnic studies professional development. Meanwhile, the Advisory Group, who literally wrote the program into existence and already started the course description writing effort, is completely ignored and dismissed.

What Now?

Honestly, I don’t know. That’s why I’m on leave. I have pushed and advocated, fought and provided evidence. I have loudly pointed out all the instances of systemic white supremacy. I have organized and accomplished with virtually no support. What now? That’s the question of the day.

Fortunately, we have many white accomplices in this fight for ethnic studies who are holding shit together right now while so many educators of color are entirely burnt out, but it shouldn’t be this way and it doesn’t have to be this way. We have so many dedicated and brilliant educators of color who are skilled and willing to lead the way. To truly be anti-racist SPS needs to value those of us who have been doing the work for years and stop trying to go around us so they can check a box on a piece of paper, but Seattle Public Schools does not like educators of color.

Philosophy of Curriculum

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This is a special PhD edition post! I was asked to write a “philosophy of curriculum” paper because my program is a doctorate of philosophy in education with a concentration on curriculum, instruction, assessment, and evaluation. Reading the history and evolution of curriculum and the roles war and economics have played in guiding it was sad; unsurprising, and still sad. My goal in earning this degree is to help normalize and legitimize rehumanizing education.


Curriculum is at the core of this Doctor of Education program, so having a strong personal philosophy about the definition and purpose of curriculum is key. It is also important to have a philosophy for how curriculum should be developed, implemented, and evaluated. Important questions to consider are: What is included in a curriculum that can be adequately differentiated to meet the needs of diverse learners and educators in a culturally responsive, critical way? How can all stakeholders work together to create intelligent accountability (Fullan, 2011) in curricula? What do evaluators need to look for to measure the efficacy of curricula?

What is Curriculum?

Franklin & Johnson (2008) indicate the historical definitions of curriculum have fluctuated over the years. Some definitions include instruction as integral to content, while some definitions limit curriculum strictly to content, specifically content broken down by discipline and usually in the form of textbooks. While the first definition of curriculum, written by Franklin Bobbitt, was based on industrial efficacy (Cullen, Harris, & Hill, 2012), modern curricularists are faced with postindustrial-era education needs.

Students and educators now have access to virtually infinite amounts of information, or what has traditionally been defined as “content”. The goal then becomes producing critically conscious consumers and manipulators of information (Laureate, 2017). The “what” to teach, therefore, is only important insofar as it provides relevant, real-world problems that students are then asked to critically engage with and apply their learning to real-world scenarios. Ideally, these scenarios will be racial and social justice oriented, encouraging students to be positive change makers as young people, not when they “grow up”. This curriculum philosophy most closely aligns with what is sometimes called critical theorists (Miller, 2011).

Who Creates Curriculum?

Levin (2008) outlines the various political pressures that continue to determine who is responsible for creating curriculum. Everyone from higher education faculty to school boards and parents believe they are expert curricularists and have a right to create, inform, and approve or reject proposed curricula. Levin (2008) discusses the phenomenon in which a person believes they have expertise by virtue of having been a student. Franklin & Johnson (2008) add the role that politics, specifically the Cold War, and economics have played in determining who writes curricula, including politicians and business leaders. This can currently be seen with the advent of the Common Core and other education reform led by Bill Gates and the Gates Foundation (Ho, 2018).

Though many reports indicate the failures (Ho, 2018) and inherent racism in contemporary education reform, which can be defined as high-stakes standards-based reform (Au, 2009; Kendi, 2016), we continue to look to politicians and business leaders to spearhead curriculum development. Professional educators continue to be at the margins of curriculum development. This is a serious deficit that needs to be corrected. Master educators become expert pedagogues only through practice, reflection, and personal and professional development. There is need for family, student, and community input, but only insomuch as there is meaningful collaboration with skilled, trained, professional pedagogues. Politicians and business leaders should never inform curriculum, as they tend to only have their own interests, and not the interests of children – or even the nation – in mind.

How Is Curriculum Evaluated?

Because of the political and economic influences on education, specifically curriculum, current curricula tend to be evaluated in terms of mastery of standards, including the Common Core and other state-specific standards (Levin, 2008). Common Core standards tend to focus on discreet skills, which necessitates a pedagogy that compartmentalizes learning, instead of synthesizing learning in critical thought and practice (Common Core, n.d.). These inequitable measurements are not improving the outcomes of students, particularly students of color (Barshay, 2019; Au, 2011; Kendi, 2016).

Perception data and portfolio assessments may lend themselves better to measuring the efficacy of curriculum. Student and family perception of how and what they are learning can indicate how well a curriculum is meeting the needs of the stakeholders education is meant to serve. Portfolio assessments, which ask students to “show what they know”, can encourage the critical synthesis within and among disciplines (Hopkins, 2017), a skill many education advocates claim they want students to leave school with, including business leaders (Peart, 2019), and they are a more rigorous way to measure curriculum efficacy.


Curriculum is the heart of teaching and learning, and in a postindustrial education setting, instruction is an essential element of an effective curriculum that prepares diverse learners to be responsible and critical consumers of knowledge. While community should play a role in creating curriculum, respect for the professional skill and knowledge cultivated over years of practice should place educators at the center of curriculum creation. The outcomes of curriculum are best evaluated by those using it to learn: students and their families. Ending high-stakes evaluation of curriculum, and by extension education, and putting human factors back into the assessment of curriculum will produce civic-minded students ready to tackle the problems of the 21st century and many generations to come.



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Math is Ethnic Studies

Featured image is of a mancala game table. Mancala is an ancient math game originating in Ethiopia.

Recently, the work of the Seattle Public Schools Ethnic Studies Advisory Board has come under fire by conservative talk show hosts and Seattle’s own preeminent racist blogger, Melissa Westbrook. Critics accuse us of “dumbing down math.” Sitting school board director, Rick Burke’s wife, Lihn-Co Nguyen, has even hopped on the ethnic studies bashing.



Let’s take a minute to understand why these attacks are baseless and racist, shall we?

STEM so White

The teachers being considered for the 2019 STEM teacher awards in Washington State are 100% white. That’s not by accident. Several studies indicate that math and science tend to be white dominated spaces and research has linked this fact to the ways in which STEM fields devalue Black and Brown identities. While there are disparate outcomes by race for all standardized tests, math scores for students of color consistently remain far lower than other tested subjects.

Study after study tell us that how young people of color view themselves as mathematicians is key to their success in math courses. This applies to all subjects. That’s why you’ll often hear history teachers say things like, “Let’s think like historians!” Students of music who consider themselves musicians probably do better than those who don’t. Even in science, students have fun when they put on the white lab coat and do experiments. In that case, they can literally see themselves as scientists. Why would it be different for math?

Math is “Objective”

Part of the reason people don’t think identity is important in math is because it’s seen as the most objective subject in school. Math is math. There’s one right answer. Math is the “universal language.” I’m not arguing with any of those statements, but math is most certainly NOT objective, especially when it’s operationalized. And guess what? Teaching math is operationalizing math. When teachers choose not to include how identities matter in math, they are teaching a biased, politicized form of math. When we give the impression (or overtly state) that math originates from European sources (even the word “mathematics” comes from a Greek word), we are stealing the rich mathematical histories of students of color from them and we are lying to white students.

When we teach math using pedagogy and instructional strategies that focus on individual learning and achievement, we are ignoring the ways in which most students of color learn – collaboratively and collectively. We use word problems that are completely disconnected from the lived experiences of students of color. We don’t teach them how math can inform and transform their lives and their communities. Black and Brown people are completely erased from math and math is irrelevant to their lives in our current math practices.

And while math may be a universal language, there are different ways to learn about, conceptualize, and solve equations that are based on culture. There’s an entire sub-field of study called ethnomathematics. Not only does ethnomathematics center math learning in cultural traditions and knowledge, it teaches us that math looks and operates differently in different cultures. Consider the Aztec base 20 system of math. Instead of doing calculations and writing out numbers in units of 10, or decimals, Aztecs (Nahuatl) used 20 as a base unit. If we teach students there are many ways to get to the “right answer,” not only will they learn their cultural roots as mathematicians, they will also understand number sense better because they will be able to define it from multiple perspectives, or approaches.

a visualization of the Aztec base 20 system

Oppression in Math

“Western” math – the base 10 system (which actually comes from ancient India)- is not the only math. The fact that so few people understand there are other ways of “doing” math means that math has been used to erase the histories of communities, people, and empires of color. That is oppression. The fact that kids of Latinx descent don’t know their ancestors invented zero is oppression. Causing people to believe that only people of European descent had anything important to say or teach about math is racism.

Science, and by extension math, have most certainly been used in more overt, nefarious forms of racism. Consider the Tuskegee Experiment, the story of Henrietta Lacks, and the debunked “science” of eugenics. Math was used to disenfranchise Black voters as late as the 1960s. Math is used in the War on Drugs in which the weight and type of drug is used in sentencing guidelines that disproportionately imprison Black and Brown offenders for longer sentences.

When Black and Brown students learn math through an ethnic studies pedagogy, it is an act of liberation. Undoing the colonization of math as a “Western” concept is resistance. Becoming a mathematician as a person of color is taking action against a system that heavily privileges white people, especially white men. Ethnic studies belongs in math just as much, if not more so, as it does in history.

#ReWhiting – Ethnic Studies in Seattle Public Schools

#ReWhiting is a hashtag invented by Marquita Prinzing, Director of Seattle Education Association’s Center for Racial Equity. She uses it to name the ways in which Whiteness reclaims institutions in which leaders of Color have successfully pushed the boundaries of racial justice. We are currently experiencing #ReWhiting in Seattle Public Schools. This blog post tells the story of the Ethnic Studies Movement in Seattle and how leadership in Seattle Public Schools is #ReWhiting our efforts.

In The Beginning

First, I want to acknowledge that the fight for ethnic studies goes back to violent clashes between students of Color demanding their right to a culturally inclusive, socially just education and education institutions during the Civil Rights era, and this piece focuses on the here and now.

In the fall of 2016, I was working with the Center for Racial Equity on building its mission and vision and coaching new racial equity teams in the district. On a different front, Jon Greenberg was working with a group of educators – Michael Peña from the Mukilteo School District, Tess Williams, who at the time was a grad student at Seattle University and now teaches at Cleveland High School, and Abraham Rodríguez from what was once called the Department of Equity and Race Relations (DERR), now called Department of Racial Equity Advancement (DREA). These educators joined forces with the then King County NAACP Education Chair, Rita Green, to write and present a resolution demanding ethnic studies in Seattle Public Schools. This effort was started by Jon after Superintendent Larry Nyland’s Equity and Race Advisory Committee (ERAC) submitted a proposal to Superintendent Nyland about an ethnic studies program that he ignored.

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packed classroom at Garfield High School’s MLK Day Celebration, 2017

One voice the team was missing was representation of grades K-6, so Jon went to Marquita to ask for suggestions. She gave him my name. He approached me one evening at an SEA representative assembly and I was all in. It was exactly the work and advocacy I was wanting to jump in to. The resolution was mostly written by the time I joined the team, so I just added a few things here and there about teaching to younger students. We presented the resolution at the 2017 MLK Day Celebration at Garfield High School to a packed room.

A few weeks later, Rita was approached by school board director, Rick Burke, who expressed interest in writing a resolution to bring ethnic studies into Seattle Public Schools. We met with Rick a few times and he led the work of the Seattle Public Schools resolution for ethnic studies, which was unanimously approved in July of 2017. The first task the school board set was to form a community task force to get input on how the program should look.

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school board mobilization in support of ethnic studies, 2017

The Struggle Against #ReWhiting Was Immediate

From the start of this work in the district, it has been a struggle to hold leadership accountable for not co opting, white washing, or erasing the work of community, students, and educators. When the School Board adopted their resolution for ethnic studies, Director Leslie Harris, currently the School Board president, made it very clear there was no money in the budget to support the work and we would have to create this program from nothing. We were just happy to have support – or what we thought was support – from the board and we were ready to roll up our sleeves and get to work.

The district then paid approximately $85,000 to a professional facilitator based out of California to lead the task force. We were fuming. They told us they had no money and then paid a consulting company to lead work it knew nothing about. The first task force meeting was a disaster. It was completely white-normed and parents and community members voicing their frustration with the district were shut down left and right. Voices of Color were not centered and microaggressions were rampant. Rita and I came up with a plan to commandeer the following meeting. We created an outline and a protocol to collect and mine recommendations and literally took over the following meeting. This is when I was getting to know Dr. Kyle Kinoshita, then Chief of Curriculum, Assessment, and Instruction (CAI). It was his first year on the job. I remember Rita saying something along the lines of, “You are all racist and we’re taking over, now.” Kyle didn’t bat an eye and took a step back. That’s when I started to see he was one of us.

The facilitation firm that was paid $85,000 for the labor Rita and I performed did write up fancy-ish drafts of the task force recommendations, but I can tell you, from leading the facilitation myself, they boil down to these three demands:


  • Ethnic Studies must be co-created with the community


  • No textbooks should be used for the Ethnic Studies program because of their inherent racism and Eurocentric perspectives


  • Ethnic Studies must be an interdisciplinary, preK-12 program


This is also when I should have seen how the district has no qualms with exploiting the labor of womxn of Color, but I was on a mission.

Centering Educators of Color

Rita, Jon, Tess, and I were invited to district meetings to work out how the program would get off the ground. The task force had suggested we push the work through the racial equity teams, but Dr. Keisha Scarlett insisted that DREA does not do curriculum. This makes sense, and I respect Keisha’s vision. The racial equity teams seemed like a good idea considering we didn’t have a budget, but in hindsight, I can see how this would have been a disastrous plan. There is no systemic oversight of the racial equity teams, and the ethnic studies work would have been lost.

The thing is, nobody at the district level had any idea how to do this. I remember one meeting in which some district administrator – I forget whom – asked what the next steps were and everyone in the room turned to Jon and I. Jon said, “I don’t know. I’m just a classroom teacher.” What he meant by this statement is he didn’t have access to district systems and this should be the work of district administrators. While I agree with Jon in principle, I saw this as an opportunity to push in a genuine ethnic studies program, and not some watered-down multicultural education bullshit. That’s when I began to assemble the Ethnic Studies Work Group, now called the Ethnic Studies Advisory Group.

Because of my work with the Center for Racial Equity, I was able to very intentionally recruit critical educators of Color to this group. I made sure the ratio of educators of Color to white educators was 2 to 1. It has remained that or higher, with the majority of the educators in the group being womxn of Color.

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some members of the advisory group working on scope and sequence, 2019

In the meantime, Kyle was able to eek out funds for us of about $90,000 from the CAI budget, which was enough to pay for substitutes so these educators could leave their classrooms once or twice a month to start building the program. Unfortunately, some principals tried to #ReWhite this plan by writing letters to the superintendent complaining about the educators leaving their classrooms. Talking about fostering the leadership of educators of Color and then complaining about them taking advantage of opportunities for leadership is #ReWhiting.

Institutional Creep

This is another term I’m using that I’ve borrowed from Marquita. It’s a form of #ReWhiting, but takes place in less obvious ways.

Sometime at the end of the summer of 2017, a Black principal, who had been pushed out of her post at an elementary school and assigned to a post at the district office, was named Ethnic Studies Program Manager. This position was created solely as a place keeper for this principal who had several harassment, intimidation, and bullying claims lodged against her by staff of Color. The education association made an agreement with the district and the principal’s association to remove her from any supervisory duty. Here we come back to the exploitation of womxn of Color. This principal had no background in ethnic studies and frequently admitted she was not prepared to do this job, but the district saw a Black woman and thought that was good enough. They set her up for failure.

Looking back, I can give her grace and recognize district leadership is to blame for what happened next, but in the moment I was enraged. First, I had been leading this work all along and one day, I received an email announcing this appointment. No explanation. No warning. While I was a bit perturbed, I was also somewhat relieved because I was still teaching full time and all of this extracurricular work was taking a toll on my family. But then…

While we were writing the BLM@School lessons, the Ethnic Studies Program Manager was going from group to group asking, “Do you really think we should be working on this? All lives matter.” During professional development sessions in which we were introducing ethnic studies, the program manager would say things like, “Ethnic studies is all about learning about our friends.” I would have to come behind her and correct this multicultural nonsense. When the BLM@School week rolled around in February of 2018, the Ethnic Studies Program Manager was part of a group of faith leaders who rallied against the theme of Black trans and queer identity and encouraged parents to keep their kids home from school on that day.

The entire time she was the program manager, she was getting the pay and I was doing the work. I was still leading the work group and teaching full time. The only difference is that I had to clean up any misinformation she spread and push back against her bigotry. Again, in hindsight I see this was the institution exploiting both of us. When she was pushed out of the program manager position and it became a possibility that I could step into it, I began to see this exploitation and wonder if I really wanted to go deeper into it, but I was on a mission.


Kyle was able to put aside even more money for ethnic studies. This past school year I worked with a $300,000 budget. I could write loads about what I and the advisory group have accomplished this year, but instead I’ll include this timeline I recently created for the school board. I think I left a few things off, but even so, this is a lot of work to be done in just one year! If this is hard to see, click here for the full report.


Most of my work this past year has been curriculum development and professional development. We contracted a company called Cyborg Mobile, whose staff is 100% people of Color, to build a website to house the materials being created for our program. As I write this, I am currently defending this work from being #ReWhited by leaders in Seattle Public Schools who have blocked the release of what Cyborg Mobile created and have been having meetings about a plan to create a different site, all while not telling me about their meetings or their plan.

Not all things have been #ReWhited. The crown jewel in all of this was the Ethnic Studies Summer Institute – a two-week long, 60 hour, intensive anti-racist educator professional development attended by 100 educators from across Western Washington. The bulk of the sessions were led by the educators of Color from the Center for Racial Equity and the Ethnic Studies Advisory Group. We had nationally recognized scholars like Dr. Wayne Au and Dr. Django Paris leading sessions. This institute was entirely – and I can say this without shame – entirely – conceived, planned, and managed by me. Marquita helped in terms of emotional and logistical support, and has been my rock through this entire process. I make a point, however, to claim ownership here because the district continues to try to erase and minimize my impact.

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The NAACP Youth Coalition developed and facilitated a student panel at the Ethnic Studies Summer Institute, 2019.

Here are some graphs of the data I collected from the evaluation form. When was the last time you went to a professional development where people used words like “transformative” and “life changing”?



“This was a transformative experience. I was completely immersed in thinking critically about race, structures & systems, and teaching pedagogy. I thought about it all evening each day as I left, talked about what I was doing with family & friends, and even dreamed about how it would impact my practice these past two weeks.”




“Very informative. I am not new to any of the concepts and I did not need convincing that Ethnic Studies is a necessary thing. That being said, the amount that I learned, talked with others, and reflected was profound. I am telling everyone I know that they have to do it next year.”



“This has simply changed the way I look at teaching. I used to have this type of attitude about teaching, and working in SPS and the PS system made me feel like a robot who shot out equations and practice problems for my students. This institute reminded me that I can make my lessons through the ES lens and create way BETTER lessons and my students will actually RETAIN the mathematical skills.”



“We will not ask for permission. We will move and do and figure out as we do. This was the best PD I have ever attended hands down.”

For the entire summary of data, click here.


All of these things I have accomplished were done using only about ⅓ of the budget Kyle allocated for me. For this reason, Kyle and I agreed the remainder of the budget should be spent on staff. We began to advocate for this in March of 2019. It’s September of 2019 now. School starts in three days. Kyle has retired, and I am being told the additional $300,000 he allocated for the coming school year may be used for other purposes since he’s gone. Ethnic Studies remains a program of one. My task is to build an interdisciplinary, preK-12 program for the largest district in the State of Washington; a district with approximately 54,000 students and 5,000 educators. In addition to building the program and creating curriculum, I’m tasked with training and supporting those 5,000 educators to teach Ethnic Studies. Why can’t I have a staff? I’ve heard two stories and one rumor:

  • Story one: The superintendent and chief of human resources can’t justify spending money on a program that is neither complete nor officially recognized/adopted by the board.


  • Story two: There are many requests for new positions in CAI and they all need to be weighed against each other because of scarcity of resources (remember, I have >$500,000 currently sitting in an account dedicated to ethnic studies).


  • Rumor: District leadership doesn’t trust me to manage a staff. This rumor comes from a racist blogger, but it’s not totally unbelievable. I know I’m seen as a threat. It’s not that they don’t think I’ll be successful. They’re afraid I’ll be successful.

Despite the gains and the very real and tangible affect the dedicated group of educators from both the Ethnic Studies Advisory Group and the Center for Racial Equity, we still have no mandate from leadership. Despite the effective leadership of Marquita and I, our work is continually dismissed and we are gatekept from decision making at the district level. Every space we exist in, we’ve had to fight for. I truly believe that our affect is why the current #ReWhiting is so intense. All of our gains have been in spite of district efforts, not because of them.

I can’t tell you what will happen next. I have committed to making this year about me and creating boundaries that prevent me from being exploited. One way I plan to accomplish this is to make all of the exploitation public, which is one of the reasons for this month’s topic. When I took this job, I took it accepting that I will be fired. This has given me the freedom to push as hard as I can, and I plan to push harder. Right now the Ethnic Studies Program needs community support more than ever to prevent its #ReWhiting.

Help me push:

Denise Juneau, Superintendent –

Dr. Diane DeBacker, CAO –

Board of Directors –

Clover Codd, Chief of HR –

My Week in Montgomery

The featured image is from the EJI Memorial. These jars are full of soil from lynching sites in the State of Alabama.

I have the great privilege to be on the current Advisory Board for Southern Poverty Law Center’s Teaching Tolerance. Our first convening of the new board was last month and it took place at the Embassy Suites in Montgomery, Alabama. It was my first time to The South since I was 16. When I was a teenager, I traveled with my family to Missouri and Indiana to visit with my mom’s side of the family. Yes, I know that’s not technically The South, but I remember going to my grandfather’s birthplace, standing on the bank of the Ohio river, and looking across to Kentucky on the other side. That’s close enough to The South for me.

My dad, brothers, and I stood out as Mexican and mixed-race people. Our darker skin seemed to make many people uncomfortable, all of whom were blood relatives. After that visit, I vowed to never go back to The South and was apprehensive about what I might experience in Montgomery, especially considering the most recent stories of misogyny and racism in the era of Trumpism.

My passion for racial justice won out and I went to Montgomery, Alabama excited to meet and work with social justice educators from across the country. I was not disappointed by the talent and passion I met in that conference room. I met Dr. Stephanie Jones who is mapping out racial trauma in schools, particularly racial trauma caused by curriculum. I was so excited to learn about her work because it’s directly related to what I’m working on for my dissertation. I got to know Matilda Morrison who is working on LGBTQ topics for kinders in Ventura, California. I spent some time listening to stories told by Kevin Cordi who has a PhD in storytelling. How cool is that? I learned all about the coolest places to visit when I go to New York this winter from Geneviève DeBose Akinnagbe who teaches in Los Angeles. There are so many other people who are doing important work, and if you want to learn more about them, you can here.

Though I am going to be critical here, I want to start by saying Teaching Tolerance is a rich resource for anti-racist educators. I look forward to learning more about what they have to offer and how they are staying current with these problematic times. We need them, and I am committed to doing what I can to help them continue to be at the forefront on a national level in the fight against hate. Please take a moment to dig into their resources for educators.


The heat and humidity aren’t the only oppressive things in Montgomery. The history is oppressive. I don’t know if it was the eerily empty streets or the spirits of the past that hit a melancholy nerve as I walked the streets of Montgomery. I’m going to jump ahead in this story a bit to the Friday I spent in Montgomery. We had gone through all of our work as an advisory board and had Friday to explore on our own. Part of our experience with Teaching Tolerance included tickets to the Equal Justice Initiative (EJI) Museum and the National Memorial for Peace and Justice.

I had an idea of what I was in for at the museum and memorial, but I was not prepared for simply walking down the street. I started out walking down a street called Tallapaloosa and came to the first intersection where Commerce St. and Tallapaloosa met. To my left was this statue of Hank Williams, so I went to check it out and noticed the street led down to a river, so I headed that direction.

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I learned from the placards that this is where enslaved Africans were brought to and from market and then later forced to load cotton bales onto boats for transport. I was expecting something along those lines, so at this point I was feeling adequately prepared to face history.

I walked back up Commerce Street and ended up in a place called The Alley where I was excited to find a Mexican Restaurant! I have this thing where I try to find Mexican food in each new place I visit. I had my lunch then headed back out onto Commerce to just go explore. Not even 100 yards in, I found this placard explaining how the buildings along Commerce St. served as warehouses for enslaved Africans waiting to be bought and sold.

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Had I just had lunch in a building that was used to torture human beings? The idea was sickening. Nearly all of those buildings currently house various restaurants except for the space occupied by the EJI. Did the other patrons know what they were doing?

I kept walking toward the Rosa Parks museum. I didn’t go inside, but there was something surreal about standing in the spot she was arrested for unapologetically taking up space that was reserved for whiteness. At just about that moment, a thunderstorm rolled in out of nowhere, and giant water drops quickly drenched me. I wasn’t mad, though. It was hot before that!

I started back toward the EJI, and while I waited for a crossing light, a big, black pickup truck entered the intersection with a Stars and Bars license plate. I’m not used to seeing that in Seattle, and was startled, though I know I shouldn’t have been. On the way back I also passed a beautiful fountain that I later learned was where slave auctions were held.

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By the time I made it back to the EJI, which was only a few blocks away, I was dripping wet and glad to be in out of the rain. I thought I was prepared for what I was going to experience. I wasn’t.

I don’t have pictures from inside the EJI because cameras are forbidden. I understand why. The emotional weight of that museum is overwhelming. People were openly sobbing, holding their children a little tighter. It was an interesting contrast sometimes; mothers and fathers with tears in their eyes as their toddlers ran around laughing and playing. If you’re hoping for a feel good, Civil Rights museum, EJI is not the place you’re looking for. You are confronted full force with the evils of whiteness. Images of torture, incarceration, murder, and the commodification of human beings are on full display. I couldn’t help but cry. Only people who have lost their humanity wouldn’t. I tried to hold myself together as much as possible because I felt selfish as a non-Black person taking op that space when there were far more Black families there grieving. I’m not surprised there weren’t many white people, but it’s still disheartening.

The EJI provides a shuttle to the monument about a mile away. I cannot even begin to describe how I felt walking through that monument.

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Again, I tried to take up as little space as possible for the same reason. The monument consists of smaller monuments to the lynching victims of each county in The South. Some are marked “unknown.” When you first start out in the space, the individual monuments are at eye level, then, as you go around the square, the individual monuments begin to rise above you. When they are fully above your head it becomes a daunting, haunted space.

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At eye level you are confronted with the “reasons” for lynchings, most of which are related to the innocence of white women.

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As I turned the next corner and saw the monument to all of the undiscovered victims, I literally could not go on. I sat there for a long time quietly crying.

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How can humans do this to other humans? It’s hard to even recount this here. In the center of this space, with the lynching monuments still above my head, was a glass container with layers of soil from various lynching sites in The South. All I could think about was how we have covered up this gruesome part of our past and it’s making a comeback because of our willful ignorance. There are reminders, but they’re too unsettling for many to look at. How do we make people look at this and truly see it for what it is – past and present?

Toward the end of the memorial are duplicate monuments. The curators of the museum have invited each of the counties to pick their respective monument up and display in remembrance of those who were lynched on their soil. So far, not one has been picked up. I went back to my hotel feeling  – I don’t even know. Right now I vacillate between rage, despair, renewed energy to fight, and disgust. I’m sorry it took me so long to go back to The South and look this history in the eye. I return to Montgomery next summer for another advisory board summit, and I am ready to learn and see more.


Here, I’m going to backtrack to my experiences during the advisory board work. While there are many educators doing amazing things, there were some things that happened I didn’t expect. I should know better. I’ve been in enough social and racial justice spaces to see people who probably shouldn’t be there put their feet in their mouths. I probably said or did something that offended others in attendance, too. Sometimes I get excited and words just fall out of my mouth! We all need to do reflective work and own our mistakes. I have work to do.

There were several times, however, when I felt like it was more than the typical reflective work. I had a couple of moments where I felt like my identity was being challenged. That seemed like such an obvious microaggression that I wasn’t expecting it. Fortunately, I was able to confront the person who committed it and they were receptive. We worked through it and I’m confident we can become good friends and colleagues.

I was surprised at the number of white participants. While I firmly believe white people should be part of this work, I also believe people of color, particularly womxn of color, should have the largest share of leadership. While there are strong people of color on the advisory, particularly Black womxn, there were only one or two who seemed to be in leadership positions with Teaching Tolerance.

I was struck at how delineated the terms “social justice” and “racial justice” felt. I recognize this is because of my own paradigm around those terms. For me, if we say “racial justice” we are including every single social justice issue because people of color experience them all. I’m wondering how I can advocate for more leaders of color and for shifting the language or perception that racial justice is only about race. We have work to do. We can’t go back to the past that haunts the streets in Montgomery. We can’t.

13 Things Not to Do When You’re Called the “R” Word; And two things you should

Yes, thirteen things. I know that seems like a lot. Usually these types of pieces stick to a nice, neat number like 3, 5, or 10, but 13 is the number of things not to do that I counted in a single response written by a white woman whom I called the “R” word (R = racist), and it’s only 13 because I combined some of them!

I am an educator of color in Seattle whose job is anti-racist work within the school district. Seattle is very white – nearly 70%. It’s also one of the most liberal cities in the US, and these liberal, white Seattleites hate being called racist, but the thing is – a lot of them are. The reason they hate it so much is because of this idea that a racist is a bad person. Robin DiAngelo calls it the “good/bad binary.”

There’s been a phrase created in the past couple of years by a white Seattle educator to describe the type of racism that exists in Seattle: Passive Progressive. A Passive Progressive is a white person who espouses progressive ideals, especially racial justice, but only to the degree it earns them points for being progressive enough to be a Seattlelite. A Black professor I work with put it best, “White people love to put ‘Black Lives Matter’ yard signs on the lawns of the neighborhoods they’re gentrifying.”

I’ve been calling out a white woman, who considers herself an “education advocate,” as a racist very publicly on my social media. We’ll call this woman Becky. I decided to do this intentional calling out when I became witness to how Becky’s Passive Progressive racism was derailing a curriculum adoption process that was widely supported by families and science educators of color. I wanted people to know that most of the opposition was coming from a racist. Becky writes for and moderates a kind of “watch dog” community forum where she “reports” on various school district goings on. I could give you a “All the Ways Becky is Racist” list that would be so much longer than this post, but just know she thought a joke about fried chicken in a discussion about racism on her forum was “much needed levity.” But Becky is one of those people who believes she is inherently not racist because she is progressive. She wrote a public response to my call outs that I am using to generate this list. The quotes below come directly from her response.

It’s important to note that Becky self identifies as white. It’s also important to note that I use the definition, “prejudice + power = racism,” which means people of color can’t be racist because we’ve never held systemic power, so this list of “things not to do” only applies to white folks!

Ready? Here we go!

Number 1: Don’t expect the person of color who called you a racist to meet you on your terms.

In her response to me calling her a racist, Becky writes:

“When you are dealing with zealots who believe they are the ones who speak with purity about all things race, ethnicity, and the intersection of those for all of us, there’s nothing you can say that will satisfy them if you can’t pass their purity means testing.  You will always be shouted down.”

We’ll get to the “zealot” and “shouted down” parts later, but here I want you to note how Becky expects me to listen to and understand her definitions of the intersections of race and ethnicity and have a discussion with her instead of “shouting” her down. I never yelled. In fact, I’ve never talked to Becky in person. I’ve only ever called her a racist on social media.

What Becky should have done when a person of color called her racist: Listen and reflect.

Number 2: Don’t try to prove the person of color who called you a racist is, in fact, a racist themselves.

I’m a PhD student and I post some of my papers on my blog because my doctorate of philosophy is in education, and I write an education blog, so it’s relevant. In one paper I was writing about how to create an anti-racist data culture. Becky didn’t like my ideas and thought they were reverse racist and she, a white woman, knows better who should do the job:

“Below is what she wrote at her blog about Dr. [Xxxx Xxxxxxxx], head of Research and Evaluation, who admittedly is a white male, but also someone who I have found to be smart and well-qualified.

An additional factor to consider is that the research and evaluation team in Seattle Public Schools consists primarily of white people, with the director being a white male (Seattle Public Schools, n.d.b). When the goals of the district, including the Strategic Plan, specifically call out racial disparities, it would make sense that the data culture be led by a person who identifies with impacted groups. A racial equity literate (Gorski, 2015) person of color would be better suited to set the parameters and purpose of data collected than a white male who cannot fully understand the needs of students of color.

Emphasis added by Becky.

What Becky should have done when a person of color called her racist: Listen and reflect.

Number 3: Don’t denigrate and belittle the person of color who called you a racist.

“Castro-Gill seemingly flails around, ‘Look at me! Why aren’t you looking at me?’ about her work. And that points to a sad, pathetic person.”

My work speaks for itself. I don’t need people to look at me, but if they did, they’d see I’m a successful, professional, grown-ass 44-year-old woman of color with three children, one grandchild, three college degrees under my belt and a fourth on the way. I’ve lived through drug dependency, teenage pregnancy, domestic violence, divorce, homelessness, and being widowed. I want people to look at Becky and how she thinks I’m “unsophisticated” and “pathetic.” That tells you more about Becky than me.

What Becky should have done when a person of color called her racist: Listen and reflect.

Number 4: Don’t contact the person of color’s employer to try to have them fired.

Yes, Becky really did this; not once, but thrice. Oh, Becky. Becky took a comment from her forum and sent it to my superiors claiming it was from me. The comment clearly did not come from me and was against everything I stand for as an educator. Here’s what Becky had to say about sending the comment to my bosses:

“My spidey sense (and common sense) tells me it was her.  She denies it was her and has threatened to sue me for saying so.  Yes, I should have been more circumspect and said something like, ‘It sounds like her’.”

Emphasis from Becky.

Here, Becky admits to knowing she wasn’t positive it was me, and she admits she reported it as if she was positive. If she wasn’t a racist, she would understand how challenging it is to be a woman of color working inside a racist institution doing racial justice work and not add fuel to the fire. But, I digress.

What Becky should have done when a person of color called her racist: Listen and reflect.

Number 5: Don’t engage in respectability politics AND Don’t tone police. defines “respectability politics” as “the set of beliefs holding that conformity to socially acceptable or mainstream standards of appearance and behavior will protect a member of a marginalized or minority group from prejudices and systemic injustices.” defines “tone policing” as “a conversational tactic that dismisses the ideas being communicated when they are perceived to be delivered in an angry, frustrated, sad, fearful, or otherwise emotionally charged manner.”

Becky says:

“She’s so righteous about her positions, she believes she’s entitled to run amok anywhere she pleases.  I’m not sure that’s the mark of someone who listens.”

Run amok? Besides Donald Trump and his crew, I’ve literally only ever called out this woman publicly as a racist.

Oh, then there’s the whole “zealot” thing:

“And please take note; this won’t be just me.  Racial equity is going to be used as a club in this district and the zealots are going to happily wield it.”

“I find it hard to believe this kind of attitude and willingness to go after people viciously and with glee is really going to move the needle on ethnic studies in this district.”

Emphasis by Becky, again.

Here we see Becky dictating how racial justice advocates should properly conduct business. We aren’t supposed to be angry or hold steadfastly to our ideals. We should meet white people where they are. See #1 above.

What Becky should have done when a person of color called her racist: Listen and reflect.

Number 6: Don’t use dog whistles.

Becky is a sly one using two examples of what not to do in one statement:

“Racial equity is going to be used as a club in this district and the zealots are going to happily wield it.”

This is both respectability politics and dog whistling. defines “dog whistling” as “a political strategy, statement, slogan, etc., that conveys a controversial, secondary message understood only by those who support the message.” Becky’s warning white folks that Black and Brown folks are gonna be coming for them. Zealots = angry Black and Brown folks!

What Becky should have done when a person of color called her racist: Listen and reflect.

Number 7: Don’t speak for people of color you think would vouch for you AND Don’t tokenize people of color as proof you’re not a racist.

Here we get two in one, again! Becky says:

“I know that [Xxxxx Xxxxx Xxxxxx], head of [XXXX], has spoken up for me and even to Ms. Castro-Gill, who seems mightily annoyed that [Xxxxx Xxxxxx] just doesn’t seem to get it.

I know [Xxxxx Xxxxx], who is the head of [XXX], and is a colleague friend would not agree that I’m a racist.  (And boy, would I love to see Castro-Gill take her on; [Xxxxx] does not suffer fools gladly.)”

Even if these people agree that Becky isn’t a racist, speaking for them is racist, not to mention the fact that many people of color have internalized oppression and engage in whiteness themselves. I’m not saying these particular people do either, but using people who do is tokenizing. Think: Ben Carson.

What Becky should have done when a person of color called her racist: Listen and reflect.

Number 8: Don’t use white people’s opinions of you to prove you’re not a racist.

Becky spoke for three people who she thinks would vouch for her not being a racist. Two were in the above example of what not to do. The third is a white person.

“I know Dr. [Xxxxx Xxxxxxx], a lifelong educator and support of lifting up students of color in our district, would not agree.”

White people don’t get to decide what is and who is racist. Hard stop.

What Becky should have done when a person of color called her racist: Listen and reflect.

Number 9: Don’t use your volunteer experience in impoverished communities as evidence that you’re not a racist AND Don’t use your volunteer experience in communities of color as evidence that you’re not a racist.

I’m combining these two because they are similar and I am making a distinction between them because here we can see Becky conflating poverty with race:

“This librarian has seen me come into her Title One elementary school, week in, week out, month in, month out, year in, year out…for three straight years.”

In the above quote Becky is referring to a librarian who agrees with me that Becky is a racist. Becky is dumbfounded the librarian would agree that she’s a racist when the librarian is witness to her volunteer work with Title 1 (low income) kids. Not all Black and Brown people are poor! And using this as evidence you’re not racist IS racist.

Becky goes on to say:

“If I’m a racist, it’s odd how I’m working mighty hard for kids of color.  Putting in time and money and sweat into helping kids of color in public education, that’s how I hide my racism.”

Think: “voluntourism,” the phenomenon in which white people go to far off countries full of Brown and Black people to bring culture and knowledge into spaces otherwise devoid of such. This type of thinking is deficit minded. We’ve already seen how she conflates poverty and race. This is just further evidence she should be nowhere near kids of color.

What Becky should have done when a person of color called her racist: Listen and reflect.

Number 10: Don’t use proximity to people of color or where you grew up as evidence you’re not a racist.

“That growing up – right on the border with Mexico – in a small, rural town that was majority Mexican, that means nothing. My Mexican-American friends from high school would laugh right in their faces to learn that anyone would think I’m a racist.”

In this prime specimen, Becky uses where she grew up, proximity to people of color, AND speaking for people of color she thinks would vouch for her. It’s like she was reading DiAngelo’s White Fragility as a guide for how to be a racist!

In another statement about her volunteer work she says:

“I’m in a diverse classroom and my teacher is black.”

Never once in her defense does Becky talk about what she learns from the people of color she’s in proximity to. She only uses them as props and shields. This is a form of tokenizing and, guess what Becky? It’s racist.

What Becky should have done when a person of color called her racist: Listen and reflect.

Number 11: Don’t use blood quantum to prove you can’t be a racist.

It’s important to know that Becky identifies as a white woman. She has never claimed to be a woman of color, but whenever Becky is called a racist, she resurrects her abuela as a shield:

“I’m a quarter but apparently, my quarter doesn’t count.  My abuela would be spinning in her grave if she heard that one.”

Ok, but then Becky admits that she doesn’t identify as a woman of color:

“That I don’t identify as Mexican-American does NOT mean that it is not part of who I am and that I am not proud of it.”

What’s most racist about this is the racist history of blood quantum ideology and, again, she’s not telling us what she learned from her abuela or how that impacted her identity development, just that she has one and that makes her ¼ Mexican – oh, and she’s proud of it while she doesn’t claim it.

Also, you don’t get to identify as, live as, and benefit from being white and then call up your abuela when you do racist shit.

What Becky should have done when a person of color called her racist: Listen and reflect.

Number 12: Don’t be a “non-racist.”

Becky frequently allows comments on her forum that are blatantly racist. One commenter blamed an educator of color for white students engaging in racist vandalism, including writing the words “KKK” and “white power” outside their classrom, because the educator of color was teaching ethnic studies and the white kids were just “sophomorically rebelling” (Becky agreed with the commenter, btw).

Becky claims she leaves these racist comments up for reasons:

“And when I read a comment that is racist or completely bizarre, I do sometimes let it stand. You know why? Because sometimes it’s better to say nothing and let that person’s shameful words speak for themselves. Because sometimes my readers are much better at letting someone know how very wrong they are than I am.”

Ok, Becky… Here, it’s important to note she frequently deletes comments she doesn’t like. Often in the comments section you’ll find the notice, “Comment removed by moderator,” but the racist ones? Naw.. those can fly. Becky, you’re either anti-racist, non-racist, or racist, and many people believe if you’re not the first, you’re the last. An anti-racist person would call that shit out. There’s no such thing as neutrality when systems of oppression exist.

What Becky should have done when a person of color called her racist: Listen and reflect.

Number 13: Don’t be a self-proclaimed ally.

“I’m a natural ally and yet because I don’t pass their litmus test, then I’m out.”

That’s right, Becky! You don’t get to decide. We do.

What Becky should have done when a person of color called her racist: Listen and reflect.

Listen and reflect. You were probably thinking, “I get it… ‘listen and reflect’,” but it’s been my experience that white people don’t like to hear that’s the answer to how to respond to the anger and pain of people of color. Notice I’m not saying, “Take Tracy’s word as gospel.” If I were the only person calling Becky a racist, Becky may not be a racist, but a lot of people of color – and white people – call Becky a racist. Instead of listening and reflecting, Becky deletes their comments when they call her out and she deflects, using racist tactics to “prove” she’s not a racist.

I hope Becky’s racist Beckfoolery can be used for good and this piece will help people identify how they are being racist when responding to being called a racist. Don’t be like Becky; instead, listen and reflect.